Hy G long time no post (again ? LOL). Jujur sejujur-jujurnya gue bingung mau gimana nyurahin perasaan gue kali ini. Okay to the point aja, my relationship with a special boy has passed since december 18th 2010. Ehm i dunno, i just can not decribe my feelings right now. Alesan gue kenapa gue akhirnya nyerah dan ga milih buat survive hubungan gue ya, jujur gue pengen dia bebas. Gue pengen dia bener bener konsentrasi ke apa yang seharusnya dia konsentrasiin. Gue sadar ko, walaupun dia ga pernah bilang dia terbeban, tapi gue bisa baca semuanya :) Emang sebenernya ada alesan lain yang ga mungkin banget ya gue share kesini, too private :p
Yep, everythin's over now. and i have to through my life without him, so do him. Sedih ? pastilah . because i've never loved someone like this before. Been too stupid to enjoyed all the pains just to set him free. I've kept it inside and nobody knows it but me. just me.
Honestly, i feel dissapointed, mad, sad, hmm what else ? ya seputar itulah. Why ? sama kayak apa yang sahabat gue rasain, kita sama-sama tau kalo "If a guy really loves a girl, he will do anything just to make her stay and will never let her go". Itulah yang bikin gue bener-bener memutuskan buat move on. Mungkin sama sekali ga terlintas difikiran lo buat make me stay beside you, berarti mungkin lo bener bener udah setuju buat akhirnya jalanin hidup sendiri sendiri entah apapun sebenernya alesan lo. Entah really don't wanna hurt me anymore or you just don't love me as much as the first time. Well, nobody knows it but you and God. You're not agree with me ? Uhm well, can somebody tell me the other meaning ? just tell me, i wanna know :)
Ya tapi biar gitu, i'll always pray for you, me and you will find a better someone (way much better). Take care of yourself ya mooo, hope you're doin fine there without me :) cause that's what im gonna do without you :)
Memi told me "Tuhan ga pernah ngambil apa yang lo sayangin dari hidup lo, tapi Tuhan menggantinya dengan yang lebih baik :)" . Thanks memi, i love you :)
But trust me, no matter how bad it was, that was mean lots for me. and you're the sweetest cupcake i've ever met. Thanks for came into my life, thanks for loved me, thanks for everything Aldo Febrian ! :)
Good bye rainbow Cupcake ! :')
With ♥
